Goodness, life has a way of running away. My brain has been working in random ways today so this post is bound to be varied!
I can't believe that I'm 30 weeks along already - seriously where did these months go. It's hard to fathom that in 7 weeks I could have a baby that's considered full term!!! Yikes!
Until earlier today I hadn't turned on the computer in days, I've been both nesting and just letting myself focus on my "real world" a bit more. I do realize it's been forever since I blessed you all with a picture of my prego belly so I'll be doing that this week.
I can't promise to read all 600+ feeds in my bloglines so if I missed something extra special please let me know...please!! It's amazing how I feel that many of you are like close friends even though we've never and probably won't ever meet face to face.
I've been feeling very anxious and excited about meeting our new daughter face to face. I'm nervous about the adjustment time. How will my son and my relationship fare? Will I still be able to give him the attention and love he needs? I thought about this today as I sat rubbing his back singing him to sleep for his nap. For the last almost three years if he's taken a nap (where he didn't fall asleep in the car) I've put him to sleep either by nursing or rocking or now that he's in his own bed rubbing his back. Of course this is just on the occasions that he actually naps, 3-4 times a week or so, but I've been treasuring these afternoon times since it's one thing I'm pretty sure I won't be able to do with a teeny tiny one around. I know that's ok and I'm blessed that I've had so many special times with him until now and I do know that there will be plenty more to come.
I'm also so very excited to have another little body to nurse and cuddle, to sleep in our bed at night and to carry in a sling. I'm thrilled to see how our son grows to love her, care for her and be the big brother he is meant to be. I just can't wait to look into her eyes and prove to myself that this love I feel is real and that she's so real. Just to see her little face knowing that she is our precious gift from God for a time. I've glimpsed how fast it will go in the last three years and I know it's not slowing down.
I'm looking forward to all the small and large milestones alike with both of them together. The joy that I have giving each of them the other for a sibling is off the charts. I know that they will only be better people having each other in our family. I absolutely adore that when my son comes into our bed for his morning cuddles he'll hold on to my husband and I and say, "We all a family. Family in bed cuddles. Mommy Daddy,(his name), and baby sister." Even he knows that she's already a part of our family even though she won't officially be arriving for a couple more months!